Thanksgiving time!!! time to go home and be with family.  it's going to be a growing experience, this i know.  i'm almost ready to into, because i know the God is going to use the situation to make me a better person.

i think that i'm going to move to livingston next semester.  i like my suitemates alot, but it's hard to find times to pray.  and when i just want quiet time, i really can't get it.  i think it's time for me to stick it out on my own.  i think i was leery of it before because i felt that i wouldn't be able to take being by myself in a room all the time.  but i think that it'll be good for me.  i'll be around my prayer parnters all the time if i move to livingston campus.  and i like breakfast there better anyways.

The Christian Newsletter comes in tomorrow!!! i'm so excited!! the Lord has surely provided.  He expanding the ministry that He's entrusted me with, so i'm very excited to minister to the saints in this inventive way.  it's only the beginning!!!

i'm going to spend at least an hour a day in fellowshiping with God everyday for now on.  i need to set apart time to talk with Pops.

Happy Turkey Day everybody.

This grace thing is pretty good.....if only i remember to do it.

Pray for me saints.  I'm tired of making the same mistakes over and over again...

i know God still loves me.....

.....just pray...

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THUR CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.

Don't you hate it when you make the same mistakes over and over...especially when you know that it's a set up from the devil?  Just pray for me saints...as i pray for you.

To all of my Christian brothers and sisters out there in the world.....

WE CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS US!!!! PHILLIPIANS 4:13

is it a struggle to put God first?  Yes, it's a learned behavior.  Sometimes people think that just because i'm going to be a preacher that i don't sin and that i just sit down and have tea with God all day long......they couldn't be any farther from the truth.  Every day i fall short of the glory of God.  there are times that i want to get up at 6am to pray and i turn my alarm off.  i'm still pressing for that mark of the high calling.

hey, paul.  don't feel weird about this, but this is a shout out just for you.  God told me to say this to my cousin one day, so i'm going to say the same to you.  No matter how far away you may think that you are from Jesus, He's still knocking at the door, waiting for you to invite Him in!! He loves you and He said that He would never leave or forsake you!!!  Don't think that we're suitemates because it was the luck of the draw.  God does everything on purpose.  When God puts His children together, He does it for a reason.

also, remember this.  Romans says that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.  So, if while we were not even thinking about Him Christ died for us, HOW MUCH MORE WILL HE DO IF YOU ARE AT LEAST TRYING!!  I DON'T KNOW WHAT GOD WANTS TO HAPPEN, BUT US BEING IN THE SAME SUITE ISN'T AN ACCIDENT.

Paul said that he learned to be content in all things (he said that somewhere in phillipians).  that what we have to do in our walks with Christ.  when we are 5, we can't drive a car until we are 17.  and when we're 17, we can't go to college until we graduate high school.  It's the same way with God.  As long as we seek His kingdom first, we will grow. we will mature. 

let's pray for each more saints....times are getting serious....

hello there, folks.  i'm back.  sorry if any of you guys were scared about me from the last post.  God was (and still is) taking me through some stuff.....it's all for my good though, because i believe. AMEN!! 

i'm counting it all joy.....

i lost my temper today....and a four letter word flew out of my mouth .  some jerk took my computer apart.  i had a right to be angry, but not that angry.  it wasn't like Jesus told me "never mind" or something like that.  i need to learn to gird up my emotions.

yo, preparing for ministry is serious.  i've ministered twice so far, and i love it.  but it just made me more nervous.  but i still have my dreams for what i want to do for the Lord.

i wonder what it is that i'll finally do?  will i be the pastor of a church?  will i be the traveling evangelist, or the Spirit-filled Bible teacher?  or will i be the biggie that i believe (and still am quite nervous about)......WHO KNOWS AND WHO CARES?!? ALL I KNOW IS THAT GOD WILL GET THE GLORY!!!

The Lord is my comfort and strength........BUT I DON'T DESERVE IT!!!  The bible says be angry and sin not.....but in my wrath...in my immaturity...have sinned against You Father!!!  HOW CAN I BE THE ONE THAT YOU'VE PICKED OUT TO MINISTER???  WHAT IS IT THAT YOU SEE IN ME??  HOW CAN I BE YOUR CHOSEN SERVANT WHEN I CAN'T KEEP AWAY FROM CHILDISH LUSTS AND STUPID ANGER??

regardless how much i don't understand you, or deserve you.....i know nothing else but You.  I know nothing else but Your shadow of protection....I still love You.  Your ways are higher than my ways, and Your thoughts are higher than my thoughts.  I don't know why you called me out, but You did.  I thank and worship You forever.  Dad, i'm gonna be honest...i don't know what my future holds...but i do know that I trust You.